Several years ago I had the most challenging year of my life. I went through some things that I NEVER thought I would, not in a million years. As a result, I have learned some very valuable lessons about life, people, and more importantly...MYSELF! I will not be detailed in this post regarding things that I have done but instead I will share some of the things that have happened as a result of them.
Let me begin by making it clear that I do not believe in placing blame on others for something I've done. I do not blame the devil, he can only manipulate things and present me with opportunities based on those manipulations. He can't force me to accept them. I do not blame people, they can only respond from perceptions based on personal experiences. Some even act out of envy, anger, or maliciousness. The bottom line is simply this, I am responsible for my own choices! No one can make me do anything, I choose whether to do or not do. That being said, I've done some things that have brought shame and dishonor to my family. I made a conscious decision to detour from the road less traveled which led me somewhere i didn't need to be. What things?" It doesn't matter. What does matter is that I have acknowledged those things as wrong, asked for forgiveness, and made the steps necessary to repair those things that were damaged. I know I can never go back and change what happened, but I rejoice in knowing that God can change our perception of what happened, and it's that perception that will help create our future. That which came to destroy me has failed to do so. I have been awakened to the reality that an enemy will only attack that which poses a threat to him. Who am I that such a great attack would be launched against me? What is it that I possess that is such a threat? How great a destiny awaits me that such a barricade would be cast in my path? I don't know but guess what??!!! We're about to find out Very Soon.
Life is meant to be lived at the highest levels, however, just like the ground it must be cultivated to produce the harvest we desire. I've known what I wanted for quite some time now, but like most people I've been planting seeds in infertile soil. Well that ended in that year of 2013. I will no longer respond to negativity by saying "That's Life" or "That's how he/she is". From now on I will promote the positives within by saying "This is Me" and "This is what I do". The bondage of life is in my silence, but the power of life is in the words I speak. I choose to exercise the latter.
People will be who they are until They decide to change. They will be who they are in your life until You decide to change. That being said, I will no longer call brother, or sister those who have continually positioned themselves as my enemy. I will no longer call friend those who have launched attacks to destroy me. The king that I am won't allow me to waste time attacking those who choose to view me through envious eyes and with a wicked heart. The warrior in me, however, will cause me to stand against and if necessary annihilate any unjust and threatening advances on the kingdom I represent. Selah! (Calmly pause and think about that!) Lol.
"This above all, to thine own self be true." - William Shakespeare
I plan to spend more time learning about myself and how I fit into the Creators plan. Why do I behave, speak, act, and respond the way I do? Why do some things sadden me while others excite me. Why do the actions of certain people anger me while others draw sympathy from me? Most of the answers I know, I chose not to act on them but instead focus on distractions. No more! I'm here for a reason, I'm gifted for a reason, and I'm constantly challenged for a reason . My choice is to Do what I was created to do...Be who I was created to be...And have whatever I desire!
To the past I say this. It may have appeared that you'd won, judging from the bruises you left me with. But one things for sure... you're gone, never to return. Me? I'm STILL HERE, scars and all. So in reality I guess I WIN!!!
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